Overwhelmed By Stage Fright

What are some hurdles in life you currently face, have faced? What are some of your fears or fears you've had? Drop them in the comments, I want to hear from you. For me, some of my biggest fears were writing, public speaking and stage fright. Can you relate?

As an entertainer and in so many ways, I am a late bloomer. My fear of public speaking and being on stage was one of the hardest fears for me to shake. Stage fright. Today, I am a Human Beatbox adventurer in the music, entertainment, and performing arts industry. And I love it. But what was it like for me to go through my hurdles and journey from being overwhelmed and frozen by fear of being on stage and public speaking to loving it today?

I know I did not love it in the beginning. I feared it. I hated being on stage. I feared speaking in front of an audience. I hated the spotlight. How did that all change? I was determined to break through my fears, anxieties, and to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. To grow in confidence in what was not comfortable for me.

I am a fourth- and third- generation Chinese American. Born, raised, and based in Honolulu, Hawaiʻi, USA. My early years were also in East Bay California. My adult years in Beijing, New York, San Francisco, and Honolulu.

My first experience of stage fright was during my academic journey. I failed the first grade at Liholiho Elementary. Who does that, right? Well, I did. That season, I did not know my ABC's, and I did not know how to spell, read or write. I also experienced stage fright and failed the first grade at Sui Wah Chinese School, not once, not twice, but multiple times. I dropped out of Sui Wah Chinese School after multiple failures. My years at Sui Wah Chinese School were my earliest of stage frights speaking Cantonese into a microphone, on a podium, on stage, and in front of the whole school in a gymnasium. Stage fright, anxiety and fear of public speaking took me a long time to shake.

From the 1980s through 1990s, I taped myself doing podcasts of me talking, reading books, and beatboxing on an audio cassette for fun. 

I thought I'd be Stan Lee. During the late 1980s to the early 2000s, my years at Kauluwela Elementary, Kawananakoa Middle, and McKinley High School, I self-published home made comic books. That was the start of my publishing and story telling through illustration and words. I also wrote scripts for my comic books at Kauluwela Elementary for fun. I did this so I could practice my drawing, writing, spelling, and story telling.
At Kawananakoa Middle School, I froze in cold sweat when I read from paper or did a speech presentation in front of class.

1999 was the year I got my first computer. It was also my first year experience with the Internet. I got into web publishing and I built my first website. 

Prior to 1999, I typed out my school paper reports with a typewriter. I had met Charlie and Lucy Wedemeyer, and they signed my copy of "Charlie's Victory" with reference to Philippians chapter 4 verse 19. It was that encounter with them that I knew I wanted to be a public speaker and author.
I then shattered an Asian American stereotype of not being on an honor roll. In high school, I hustled by doing summer school, correspondence, and sports to keep my grades up.
My athletic journey, I was a two-year letterman in soccer and judo at McKinley High School. I was nominated as "Mr. Aloha" at my senior prom, and I was recipient of McKinley Tigers' Soccer "Mr. Hustle" Award. 

Post high school, I won gold medals at judo tournaments hosted by San Jose State University, and City College of San Francisco.

My final judo win was a Third Place Trophy at the Salt Lake District Park Judo Tournament. The end of that same month, I collided with a SUV as a pedestrian at a crosswalk near Shobukan Judo Club, Pizza Hut, Walgreens, and Liliha Bakery. I was knocked unconscious. Driver rendered help. She called first responders and prayed over me. 

By God's grace, no broken bones, but a serious concussion and trauma. God's hand of protection over my life, that driver who rendered help, and my judo kicked in that night. The next morning, a family member took me to see the Passion of the Christ. Following the movie, I noticed I got startled by parked and incoming cars at the movie theatre parking lot. That was the turning point of my life.

I took care of unfinished business. 

I shattered doubt and failure. I went back to college, pursued my beatboxing career, and I judo flipped my college transcript from a 1.0 to a 4.0 grade point average. My first live performance? I experienced stage fright. It was that one fear I could not break.

I overcame my academic hurdles when I completed my Freeman Foundation scholarship program at Beijing Foreign Studies University. At the University of Hawaiʻi at Kapiʻolani Community College, I got inducted into the Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society, was on the student Dean's List, and earned my general degree. Then I took some music business and audio engineering courses through the partnership of Belmont University's Mike Curb College of Entertainment and Music Business, and Honolulu Community College.
Within those years, I confronted my stage fright by hitting up open mics throughout the state of Hawaiʻi, took voice and music classes taught by professor Lina Doo. I took private voice lessons from Cat Wong of Cat Wong Studios.

I pursued my beatboxing career, overcame stage fright, worked as a Supplemental Math Instructor, college peer-mentor in mathematics, math tutor, and math note taker. In recent years, I got back into helping math students while beatboxing throughout the state of Hawaiʻi prior to Covid-19. 

Beatboxing wise, I've done performances in cities of the Hawaiian island of Oʻahu, Kauaʻi, and Hilo of Hawaiʻi Island, China, Los Angeles, San Francisco, New York, and Australia. I've also been proposed for appearances in Lānaʻi Island, Kona of Hawaiʻi Island, Maui, Israel, India, Philippines, Costa Rica, Peru, Columbia, Canada, Nevada, Texas, Boston, Taiwan, Japan, Germany, and China.

Today, I am fluent in English, Mandarin, and Cantonese. For Mandarin, I converse in Pǔtōnghuà, and for fun Běijīnghuà of Guóyǔ. For Cantonese, I converse in Hēunggóng wá and Jūngsāan wá of Gwóngdūng wá. I was fluent in my reading and writing in Chinese characters at one point, but still strong in my writing. Reading is rusty. 

Currently, I am working on the rough draft of my book. I also have goals to get more involved in music, entertainment, performing arts, public speaking, voice over work, productions, commercial work, film, and publishing. 

For my references of influence and inspiration... 
Song and dance in film: Fred Astaire, Gene Kelly, Michael Jackson 

Voice over work: Fred Newman, Bobby McFerrin, Michael Winslow, Rahzel, Jim & Pat Banks, Cindy Trimm, John Eckhart 

Music: MC Jin, Bobby McFerrin, Michael Jackson, Rahzel, John Tussey, Cheryl Salem, Two Steps From Hell, Jake Shimabukuro 

Books from: Stan Lee, Charlie & Lucy Wedemeyer, Jim & Pat Banks, Harry & Cheryl Salem, Art Sepulveda, Wally Matanza, Casey Treat, Tim Storey, Nick Vujicic, Laura Numeroff, Felicia Bond, Dale Keown, Peter David

Public speakers: Charlie & Lucy Wedemeyer, Art & Kuna Sepulveda, Wally & Patti Matanza, Branson & Nicole Silva, Chauncey & Donalee Pang, Terry & Vicky Wong, Malcolm & Deneen Quartero, Shawn & Desaree Kurihara, Devin & Cindy Lau, Marques & Nicole Farmer, Allan Silva, John Bevere, Jentezen Franklin, Tim Storey, Nick Vujicic, Marc Mero 

More sources of inspiration: you, my blog readers, my family and friends, my Word of Life ohana, my former teachers, Asian Hustle Network, Bruce Lee, Jackie Chan, Jet Li, Nicole Lam, Kelly Cooper, Adolph Samuels, Clinton Sunada, Emilio Agustine, Dan Augustine, Gayle Oura, Leigh Dooley, Mark Alexander, Lina Doo, Cat Wong, Elaine Chao, BloomingGales, Joe Marquez, Akiane Kramarik, Paulskeee, Jimmy Pedro, Taylor Tanaka, Duke & Kiki King, Angela Keen, Traci Toguchi, Lyanne Brooks, Kavet the Catalyst, Devon Marlink, Olivia Thai, Fat Boys, Doug E. Fresh, Far East Movement, Kari Jobe, Kim Walker-Smith, Big Daddy Weave, Chris Tomlin, Michael Jordan, Brandi Chastain, Kiana Tom, Floyd Mayweather Jr., Todd McFarlane, Tony Hawk, Kutmaster Spaz, East 3, Beak, Tom Thum, Afra, and this ever evolving list.

I want to close with this: what are some hurdles in life you currently face, have faced? What are some of your fears or fears you've had? Drop them in the comments, I want to hear from you.

50 comments

  • Bryan
    Bryan Oakland
    Amazing story Jason!

    Amazing story Jason!

  • Maple
    Maple Singapore
    What an inspiring story and journey! I also share the same fears of public speaking and being in the centre of attention. Keep doing amazing beatboxing and reach for the stars!

    What an inspiring story and journey! I also share the same fears of public speaking and being in the centre of attention. Keep doing amazing beatboxing and reach for the stars!

  • Jasmine
    Jasmine New York
    Awesome story! I can totally relate to this. Public speaking was also one of my fears. Being an international student in the U.S. was not easy at the beginning. Love your sharing. Keep it up Jason!

    Awesome story! I can totally relate to this. Public speaking was also one of my fears. Being an international student in the U.S. was not easy at the beginning. Love your sharing. Keep it up Jason!

  • Cherlyn
    Cherlyn Honolulu
    My fear is talking to people on the phone. I’m very lucky I don’t have to talk on the phone at my job. Not good problem solving on the phone with customers.

    My fear is talking to people on the phone. I’m very lucky I don’t have to talk on the phone at my job. Not good problem solving on the phone with customers.

  • Darius
    Darius Virginia
    I recently have begun to do open mics and spoken word. I’ve learned that knowing my material has helped in the delivery. It’s easier to do when I’m not reading or thinking but just flowing. Dope story man, keep pushing.

    I recently have begun to do open mics and spoken word. I’ve learned that knowing my material has helped in the delivery. It’s easier to do when I’m not reading or thinking but just flowing. Dope story man, keep pushing.

  • Gale
    Gale Oahu
    I haven't experienced stage fright before, but I still don't like being in front of a camera. I rather be the one taking the picture or taking the video. I just don't like being the center of attention. One of the hurdles I've had to face in the past was when I went back to college to get my Bachelor's degree. I had to take Math, a subject I wasn't good at. Long story short, I overcame my fear of Math when I ended up not only passing the courses but finishing strong. Thank you for sharing your hurdles.

    I haven't experienced stage fright before, but I still don't like being in front of a camera. I rather be the one taking the picture or taking the video. I just don't like being the center of attention.
    One of the hurdles I've had to face in the past was when I went back to college to get my Bachelor's degree. I had to take Math, a subject I wasn't good at. Long story short, I overcame my fear of Math when I ended up not only passing the courses but finishing strong.
    Thank you for sharing your hurdles.

  • Marilena
    Marilena Romania
    I know how it feels to be afraid of speaking in public. I remember my first speaking in public like it was yesterday. I'll never going to forget. I had to talk in court. My knees was shaking. My voice was trembling. But after that I got experience and next times was better and better. Even so, every time I have to speak in public I have some emotions. With all these eyes on you.... Thinking "what if I say something wrong" or "what if they notice that I have emotions" but these things doesn't really matter because they do not know your feelings and any of us who is talking in public have same - more or less - feelings. This is a very good post Jason. And interesting as always. I am proud of you. Sending you love and my regards from distance. 🖤

    I know how it feels to be afraid of speaking in public. I remember my first speaking in public like it was yesterday. I'll never going to forget. I had to talk in court. My knees was shaking. My voice was trembling. But after that I got experience and next times was better and better. Even so, every time I have to speak in public I have some emotions. With all these eyes on you.... Thinking "what if I say something wrong" or "what if they notice that I have emotions" but these things doesn't really matter because they do not know your feelings and any of us who is talking in public have same - more or less - feelings.
    This is a very good post Jason. And interesting as always. I am proud of you. Sending you love and my regards from distance. 🖤

  • Marilena
    Marilena Romania
    I know how it feels to be afraid of speaking in public. I remember my first speaking in public like it was yesterday. I'll never going to forget. I had to talk in court. My knees was shaking. My voice was trembling. But after that I got experience and next times was better and better. Even so, every time I have to speak in public I have some emotions. With all these eyes on you.... Thinking "what if I say something wrong" or "what if they notice that I have emotions" but these things doesn't really matter because they do not know your feelings and any of us who is talking in public have same - more or less - feelings. This is a very good post Jason. And interesting as always. I am proud of you. Sending you love and my regards from distance. 🖤

    I know how it feels to be afraid of speaking in public. I remember my first speaking in public like it was yesterday. I'll never going to forget. I had to talk in court. My knees was shaking. My voice was trembling. But after that I got experience and next times was better and better. Even so, every time I have to speak in public I have some emotions. With all these eyes on you.... Thinking "what if I say something wrong" or "what if they notice that I have emotions" but these things doesn't really matter because they do not know your feelings and any of us who is talking in public have same - more or less - feelings.
    This is a very good post Jason. And interesting as always. I am proud of you. Sending you love and my regards from distance. 🖤

  • Salsamarie
    Salsamarie Honolulu
    I see why pressure makes diamonds but more importantly living up to your purpose. I believe that God gives us a purpose but sometimes fear or past failures paralyzes us and in return we do not live a purpose driven life! I appreciate your testimony as it is powerful and right on time. One day we shall chat and I can share with you my journey and how I quit my job gave up the comforts of my life on the mainland in 3 months. Took a leap of faith to an Island with no family a daughter and seven suitcases lol oh and sold my fully loaded home from here. My journey hear was the beginning and I can’t wait to fulfill my purpose...God’s purpose

    I see why pressure makes diamonds but more importantly living up to your purpose. I believe that God gives us a purpose but sometimes fear or past failures paralyzes us and in return we do not live a purpose driven life!

    I appreciate your testimony as it is powerful and right on time. One day we shall chat and I can share with you my journey and how I quit my job gave up the comforts of my life on the mainland in 3 months. Took a leap of faith to an Island with no family a daughter and seven suitcases lol oh and sold my fully loaded home from here. My journey hear was the beginning and I can’t wait to fulfill my purpose...God’s purpose

  • maka
    maka Japan
    Mahalo for sharing for your awesome stories! My fear is taking an interview for getting a new job and speaking in public. But I believe it's an opportunity to improve myself when I face some obstacle!

    Mahalo for sharing for your awesome stories! My fear is taking an interview for getting a new job and speaking in public. But I believe it's an opportunity to improve myself when I face some obstacle!

  • Jeannie Choi
    Jeannie Choi Washington
    I too have had this nervousness in public speaking. It was the fact that regardless of any experience from high school, a college business class presentation had my legs shaking. Other times after that it didn't happen every time for me to be nervous to the point of visibility. I thought about how I am going to do this time, and that is something overwhelming. I forgot that could have been the problem. Get this, I recently after nearly 20 years since that business class, went and sang karaoke at a lake for Fourth of July this month and my legs shook [only a bit less this time]😝 Yet again! I sang "What's up" by the way. 4 Non Blondes.

    I too have had this nervousness in public speaking. It was the fact that regardless of any experience from high school, a college business class presentation had my legs shaking. Other times after that it didn't happen every time for me to be nervous to the point of visibility.
    I thought about how I am going to do this time, and that is something overwhelming. I forgot that could have been the problem.
    Get this, I recently after nearly 20 years since that business class, went and sang karaoke at a lake for Fourth of July this month and my legs shook [only a bit less this time]😝 Yet again! I sang "What's up" by the way. 4 Non Blondes.

  • Allan
    Allan Hawai’i
    Aloha Jason, You are a true inspiration for people around the world! I can relate to your story. I was so nervous in college when I gave my first speech, I broke the podium & microphone. Well like you, I came to the realization that if you have something to share that can help others, never give up. Today, I am motivational speaker that speaks to thousands of people. I Look forward to hearing about your future success.🤙🏼

    Aloha Jason,
    You are a true inspiration for people around the world! I can relate to your story. I was so nervous in college when I gave my first speech, I broke the podium & microphone. Well like you, I came to the realization that if you have something to share that can help others, never give up. Today, I am motivational speaker that speaks to thousands of people. I Look forward to hearing about your future success.🤙🏼

  • Cherry-Anne Satterfield
    Cherry-Anne Satterfield Los Angeles
    My whole life I struggled with being smart .. or opposite of smart. I came from a family of Jamaican Colombian (mom) African American (dad) I dealt with knowing how to speak and read Spanish before English. It was difficult because when I moved to Hawaii at the age of 7 they spoke more English here than California. They didn't know what to do with a black kid that spoke Spanish. I thought I was stupid but I was just bilingual. Well that was my delima.

    My whole life I struggled with being smart .. or opposite of smart. I came from a family of Jamaican Colombian (mom) African American (dad) I dealt with knowing how to speak and read Spanish before English. It was difficult because when I moved to Hawaii at the age of 7 they spoke more English here than California. They didn't know what to do with a black kid that spoke Spanish. I thought I was stupid but I was just bilingual. Well that was my delima.

  • Alison
    Alison Kalihi Valley, Hawaii
    Aloah Jason! What an inspiring story you have to share with the world! I can relate a bit to your story! I love to sing and have sung in front of a whole ballroom of people, as well as singing on Center Stage at Ala Moana Shopping Center for Hawai'i Stars....way back in 2000, which was broadcast all over the islands. I also have stage-fright when I have to perform in front of many people... it started when I was younger and had to perform at my piano recitals. I remember my leg would shake as I played the piano! Also, when I have to sing in front of the audience at karaoke recitals, I get so nervous, and sometimes I would forget the words, which were in Japanese...lol! But I learned to just keep on singing, even if it's the wrong words...most people won't even notice! Congratulations to you for all your academic achievements, sports achievements, and beatboxing accomplishments!! You are a rising star! Keep shining your Light for all of us to see!!

    Aloah Jason! What an inspiring story you have to share with the world! I can relate a bit to your story! I love to sing and have sung in front of a whole ballroom of people, as well as singing on Center Stage at Ala Moana Shopping Center for Hawai'i Stars....way back in 2000, which was broadcast all over the islands. I also have stage-fright when I have to perform in front of many people... it started when I was younger and had to perform at my piano recitals. I remember my leg would shake as I played the piano! Also, when I have to sing in front of the audience at karaoke recitals, I get so nervous, and sometimes I would forget the words, which were in Japanese...lol! But I learned to just keep on singing, even if it's the wrong words...most people won't even notice!

    Congratulations to you for all your academic achievements, sports achievements, and beatboxing accomplishments!! You are a rising star! Keep shining your Light for all of us to see!!

  • Helen
    Helen Hong Kong
    Amazing!! Congratulations on the achievements! Overcoming fears can be a scary thing but with the right mindset anything is possible!

    Amazing!! Congratulations on the achievements! Overcoming fears can be a scary thing but with the right mindset anything is possible!

  • Angie
    Angie Philadelphia
    Inspiring! I had a similar experience but with presentations to executives for work! I ended up recording myself and start practicing Facebook live. I now want to start YouTube but because I’m not confident I keep delaying myself lol! Keep going ! Add oil!

    Inspiring! I had a similar experience but with presentations to executives for work!

    I ended up recording myself and start practicing Facebook live. I now want to start YouTube but because I’m not confident I keep delaying myself lol! Keep going ! Add oil!

  • Charmaine
    Charmaine Philippines
    Wow another remarkable story! Firstly I want to congratulate from all of your achievements in life. I believe that God had prepared you for all of those things you've done. So you've asked about my hurdles and fears life, well I also got nervous at stage and every time there are numbers of people who are staring at me. I don't exactly treat it as something that I fear of but I really do get nervous about it. To be honest, my greatest fear in life is when someone dearly (especially my family) to me will pass away. I am being hard working for their sake. I love them more than how much I love myself.

    Wow another remarkable story! Firstly I want to congratulate from all of your achievements in life. I believe that God had prepared you for all of those things you've done. So you've asked about my hurdles and fears life, well I also got nervous at stage and every time there are numbers of people who are staring at me. I don't exactly treat it as something that I fear of but I really do get nervous about it. To be honest, my greatest fear in life is when someone dearly (especially my family) to me will pass away. I am being hard working for their sake. I love them more than how much I love myself.

  • Tim
    Tim Mililani
    Thanks for sharing your inspirational journey Jason! We praise our Lord and heavenly Father in all circumstances as He is the same God in the valley as on the mountaintops. I've learned to rest in Him through my stroke and the death's of my mom and my wife's mom. This all happened in a years time as I could feel the Lord's presence during these trials. He carried our family through all this..I am not physically healed yet, but I can walk without a cane (I feel comfortable at home but use a cane when I'm outdoors) So thanks for the inspiration. Our family has a close relationship with the Lord so I am a blessed man. I trust in God's timing for my healing. So thanks for the encouragement. You must have learned a lot through you overcoming all your hurdles. What looked like a setback to others was just preparation for God's comeback. Roman's 8:28- And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good. So stay blessed and continue to follow Him in your faith and obedience Jason. In His name - brother Tim

    Thanks for sharing your inspirational journey Jason! We praise our Lord and heavenly Father in all circumstances as He is the same God in the valley as on the mountaintops. I've learned to rest in Him through my stroke and the death's of my mom and my wife's mom. This all happened in a years time as I could feel the Lord's presence during these trials. He carried our family through all this..I am not physically healed yet, but I can walk without a cane (I feel comfortable at home but use a cane when I'm outdoors) So thanks for the inspiration. Our family has a close relationship with the Lord so I am a blessed man. I trust in God's timing for my healing. So thanks for the encouragement. You must have learned a lot through you overcoming all your hurdles. What looked like a setback to others was just preparation for God's comeback. Roman's 8:28- And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good. So stay blessed and continue to follow Him in your faith and obedience Jason. In His name - brother Tim

  • Willi
    Willi Makakilo
    Loved your story. Adversity certainly played a frequent role in your life. It takes courage to share. All reading It will have an opportunity to see God’s abundant grace and loving guidance in your life. In a word, tenacity describes a quality woven in throughout. Needless to say, your reflections are inspiring. There have been many times discouragement and rejection have been my fear and prison getting in the way of personal and professional development. We need only fear God and not man. Although you having so many childhood humiliating and oppressive moments were destructive at the time, , God used it for good. You are an amazing entertainer, and generously illuminating Creation of God. You bless all who have the privilege to hear your heart. Thank you Jason!

    Loved your story. Adversity certainly played a frequent role in your life. It takes courage to share. All reading It will have an opportunity to see God’s abundant grace and loving guidance in your life. In a word, tenacity describes a quality woven in throughout. Needless to say, your reflections are inspiring. There have been many times discouragement and rejection have been my fear and prison getting in the way of personal and professional development. We need only fear God and not man. Although you having so many childhood humiliating and oppressive moments were destructive at the time, , God used it for good. You are an amazing entertainer, and generously illuminating Creation of God. You bless all who have the privilege to hear your heart. Thank you Jason!

  • Janine
    Janine Hawaii
    So very encouraging! I love the passion in the pursuit of your dreams and how you use it to help others! Awesome!

    So very encouraging! I love the passion in the pursuit of your dreams and how you use it to help others! Awesome!

  • Karla Severson
    Karla Severson Las Vegas, Nevada
    Incredible testimony & talent!! ✨🙌🏽

    Incredible testimony & talent!! ✨🙌🏽

  • Chris S
    Chris S NYC
    God is good!! Thank you for sharing your story. Keep shining your light, the world needs more of it! 🙏

    God is good!! Thank you for sharing your story. Keep shining your light, the world needs more of it! 🙏

  • Naomi
    Naomi Maui
    Awesome story

    Awesome story

  • YaskY808
    YaskY808 Honolulu
    You are never underestimated or late for anything because Elohym timing is perfect. His thoughts for you are higher and His ways are higher never think of yourself any less. It is never what others say or think but what Elohym says who you are. You have over came through perseverance and not compromising the talent that you have been blessed with. May His Word be a lamp to your feet and a light to your path but always remember in order to see His plans you need to take those first steps and trust that He will never leave you nor forsake you. He is the way the truth and the life. May your gifts give way for more trees to grow as others follow in the steps of Christ. For all the honor and praise in Yahusha name. Amien

    You are never underestimated or late for anything because Elohym timing is perfect.
    His thoughts for you are higher and His ways are higher never think of yourself any less. It is never what others say or think but what Elohym says who you are. You have over came through perseverance and not compromising the talent that you have been blessed with. May His Word be a lamp to your feet and a light to your path but always remember in order to see His plans you need to take those first steps and trust that He will never leave you nor forsake you. He is the way the truth and the life. May your gifts give way for more trees to grow as others follow in the steps of Christ. For all the honor and praise in Yahusha name. Amien

  • Kailee
    Kailee waianae
    Amazing story ! I'm fear is singing in front of people and being on stage. When I was in intermediate I joined chorus. One day we was fundraising for our trip to New york, exciting right? So I decided I wanna try sing by myself but at thr same time I was scared I didn't know how to get rid of my fear but I got over it quick. But your story is inspiring! Keep up the good work!

    Amazing story ! I'm fear is singing in front of people and being on stage. When I was in intermediate I joined chorus. One day we was fundraising for our trip to New york, exciting right? So I decided I wanna try sing by myself but at thr same time I was scared I didn't know how to get rid of my fear but I got over it quick. But your story is inspiring! Keep up the good work!

  • John
    John Oahu
    God bless you Jason 😊

    God bless you Jason 😊

  • Mario. K. Fonseca.
    Mario. K. Fonseca. Honolulu
    Jason, You go man. I know you are a unique, inspiration to all here on earth. We will always remember you. God has created in you the makings of a champion. Please be encouraged. Always give your aloha, your smile, your happiness to everyone here on earth. From your amazing talent from Almighty God. Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. You rock with your beatboxing. If God before you who can be against you. You are the King of beatboxing and the King David of the 21st century. We love you.

    Jason,
    You go man. I know you are a unique, inspiration to all here on earth.
    We will always remember you.
    God has created in you the makings of a champion.
    Please be encouraged.
    Always give your aloha, your smile, your happiness to everyone here on earth.
    From your amazing talent from Almighty God. Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. You rock with your beatboxing.
    If God before you who can be against you.
    You are the King of beatboxing and the King David of the 21st century.
    We love you.

  • Vee
    Vee Honolulu
    Fear is always and will be inevitable, part of being human. I think that is something extraordinary when we can conquer those fears. What you have done to achieve it is amazing and inspirational. Continue to do you! My greatest fear is being in the ocean. When I was little, I’ve drowned before. From then on I have always tried to avoid swimming in the sea. For the last couple years however, I’ve managed to begin swimming in the ocean again. That only happened because of the support from friends and family. Especially my fiancé, she helped me slowly to gain courage to not be afraid. Even with that being said, I am still afraid of the ocean but I’ve past the point where I can actually be in the deep without having panic attacks. I believe surrounding yourself with supportive and loving people will definitely help set your path to conquering your fears.

    Fear is always and will be inevitable, part of being human. I think that is something extraordinary when we can conquer those fears. What you have done to achieve it is amazing and inspirational. Continue to do you!

    My greatest fear is being in the ocean. When I was little, I’ve drowned before. From then on I have always tried to avoid swimming in the sea. For the last couple years however, I’ve managed to begin swimming in the ocean again. That only happened because of the support from friends and family. Especially my fiancé, she helped me slowly to gain courage to not be afraid. Even with that being said, I am still afraid of the ocean but I’ve past the point where I can actually be in the deep without having panic attacks.

    I believe surrounding yourself with supportive and loving people will definitely help set your path to conquering your fears.

  • Alemi
    Alemi Home
    Ok so I didn’t read the whole thing. It was too long and I didn’t have the patience to read all of it. Thank you for sharing your story about what you’ve been thru. I have a chemical imbalance where my brain doesn’t create enough serotonin which caused me to have anxiety and depression. Those two in turn thru out some of my experiences; I have developed PTSD(for one specific person), panic attacks, and slight agoraphobia. I am on medication and I have been off and on since I was 14 and no I will not stop taking them because they do help me and when I am not on them I would not be the person you know. I am upset most of the time, easily annoyed, I say things I probably shouldn’t even after I’ve thought it thru, and my anxiety is 10x worse. I can’t hold down a job because whenever I tell my supervisor I have what I have they end up taking advantage of it or not treating the situation seriously and make me worse. I also stopped going to your church because I started to feel uncomfortable after a while. I’m back at my Buddhist practice and I feel safe with them. I’m glad you and your fellowship support each-other, but I just couldn’t. You said you wanted to hear my story well that’s most of it. If you want more of an in-depth explanation of all of that feel free to DM me.

    Ok so I didn’t read the whole thing. It was too long and I didn’t have the patience to read all of it. Thank you for sharing your story about what you’ve been thru.

    I have a chemical imbalance where my brain doesn’t create enough serotonin which caused me to have anxiety and depression. Those two in turn thru out some of my experiences; I have developed PTSD(for one specific person), panic attacks, and slight agoraphobia. I am on medication and I have been off and on since I was 14 and no I will not stop taking them because they do help me and when I am not on them I would not be the person you know. I am upset most of the time, easily annoyed, I say things I probably shouldn’t even after I’ve thought it thru, and my anxiety is 10x worse. I can’t hold down a job because whenever I tell my supervisor I have what I have they end up taking advantage of it or not treating the situation seriously and make me worse.

    I also stopped going to your church because I started to feel uncomfortable after a while. I’m back at my Buddhist practice and I feel safe with them. I’m glad you and your fellowship support each-other, but I just couldn’t.

    You said you wanted to hear my story well that’s most of it. If you want more of an in-depth explanation of all of that feel free to DM me.

  • Tiha
    Tiha Germany
    Hey Jason, thank you for sharing your hurdles and your motivation to overcome our own struggles! I would say my strongest fear is being out of touch with everything. It can be physically, mentally, emotionally, ranging from agoraphobia to being totally absent-minded with things I need to deal with.

    Hey Jason, thank you for sharing your hurdles and your motivation to overcome our own struggles! I would say my strongest fear is being out of touch with everything. It can be physically, mentally, emotionally, ranging from agoraphobia to being totally absent-minded with things I need to deal with.

  • Juan “Nacho” S.
    Juan “Nacho” S. Mililani, HI
    Jason, stories like this give real hope for the people who struggle to speak up and have bad fears of standing in front of big crowds (like myself, for example). I enjoyed reading it, and look forward to seeing more of what you have in the future :)

    Jason, stories like this give real hope for the people who struggle to speak up and have bad fears of standing in front of big crowds (like myself, for example). I enjoyed reading it, and look forward to seeing more of what you have in the future smile

  • Suzie
    Suzie South Gibson, Pa
    Jason! Great job on your blog! I enjoyed hearing your about your life story:)

    Jason! Great job on your blog! I enjoyed hearing your about your life storysmile

  • Steve Pheng
    Steve Pheng Los Angeles
    I hired english tutors so I wouldn't stutter and stress on presentations. I've come a long way but strangely thinking abt it stresses me out...

    I hired english tutors so I wouldn't stutter and stress on presentations. I've come a long way but strangely thinking abt it stresses me out...

  • Nate
    Nate Oahu
    Thank you Jason for sharing your powerfull and inspiring story. I like how you were determined to breakthrough your fears and anxieties to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. To grow in confidence in what wasn't comfortable for you. You didn't succeed at first but you eventually got back up and conquered your fears. You could have stayed down but you didn't. That is powerful and inspiring! God has enabled and empowered me to conquer many anxieties and fears. Because of experiencing certain things in my life I grew up struggling big time with many things including a fear of people and situations. Being a Born Again Christian and choosing to let the word of God guide, instruct and strengthen me has given me the courage and strength to take a step out in faith even when I can't see. God has loved me back to life! God's perfect love casts out all my fears! Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

    Thank you Jason for sharing your powerfull and inspiring story. I like how you were determined to breakthrough your fears and anxieties to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. To grow in confidence in what wasn't comfortable for you. You didn't succeed at first but you eventually got back up and conquered your fears. You could have stayed down but you didn't. That is powerful and inspiring! God has enabled and empowered me to conquer many anxieties and fears. Because of experiencing certain things in my life I grew up struggling big time with many things including a fear of people and situations. Being a Born Again Christian and choosing to let the word of God guide, instruct and strengthen me has given me the courage and strength to take a step out in faith even when I can't see. God has loved me back to life! God's perfect love casts out all my fears! Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

  • Kaia
    Kaia Oahu
    Good stuff Jason! Keep doing you what you’re doing brother! All the failed attempts and shortcomings just helped to build the man that you are today. Happy for you bro! GOD BLESS and “Peace be the journey” -Cool Runnings 🤙🏽

    Good stuff Jason! Keep doing you what you’re doing brother! All the failed attempts and shortcomings just helped to build the man that you are today. Happy for you bro!
    GOD BLESS and “Peace be the journey” -Cool Runnings 🤙🏽

  • Thomas Chi
    Thomas Chi Mililani, Hawaii 96789
    Someone once said, "The only thing to fear is fear itself." Well you know that's kinda true and sort of not. We fear because we are just afraid of the truth of life itself. I'm not afraid of death because we are all technically dying though we just don't know when. I'm not afraid of ghosts because I see them every now and then. I'm not afraid of love although I find love is afraid of me. I've kissed 3 guys on 3 different dates and these guys fainted and peed their pants and I was left to catch them in their fall. They didn't understand that they were the ones that got excited and ran away. It's fine though because love is not for everyone. I'm am afraid of sharks although everytime I'm in the ocean sharks come to visit me because my aunt said that's my Amakua. They swim passed me and around me though they don't eat me. I don't fear pain because the pain from the severe rheumatoid arthritis i have is 24/7. When I was 23, I had a brain tumor. With a round of chemo and radiation, the tumor died and it was left blocking a chemical passage for when I sleep I end up with seizures. It was quite frightening for years though I've gotten used to them. My body becomes paralyzed though I'm still breathing. I can hear myself screaming and yelling for help though no one can hear me. I have a sharp stabbing pain in my front right temporal lobe of my skull and all I can truly hear is static. Like the old analog TV's when the channel would go off the air. I went for a sleep study test and even the doctors say the results are inconclusive and the reading is not standard to what they've ever seen before. The most horrible and scariest part about waking up after a seizure is having loss of memory of motor skills you take for granted on a daily basis and loss of memory of friends. Some mornings i cannot remember how to brush my teeth. Some days when I get to work I cannot remember names of people I work with daily. You see, people don't understand that even with all this going on, the front I put on should be enough that no one would suspect I'm having a bad day. No one needs to know considering everyone has their own problems to deal with. I am afraid of sleeping, hence the reason why a lot of night I'm up so late. I'm afraid of waking up and not remembering anyone. I'm honest and blunt to the point. I don't have the energy to waste on people who want to be impertinent. That's just simply a waste. I'm not afraid of rejection because rejection help you to build courage. For some people who like to wallow in their own self pity, have at it. For the rest of the population, hooray for moving past and moving forward. The only fear that most of us are willing endure is loneliness. It is always lonely. Someone close to me once said, "Stay single, you'll be happier." Single is great though you don't get the companionship and relationship that you desire. It's loneliness that wakes me up in the morning and sends me to bed every night. Enough said. Blah blah blah! Come on covid19, do your worst! I am not afraid of you. 😘

    Someone once said, "The only thing to fear is fear itself." Well you know that's kinda true and sort of not. We fear because we are just afraid of the truth of life itself.

    I'm not afraid of death because we are all technically dying though we just don't know when.

    I'm not afraid of ghosts because I see them every now and then.

    I'm not afraid of love although I find love is afraid of me. I've kissed 3 guys on 3 different dates and these guys fainted and peed their pants and I was left to catch them in their fall. They didn't understand that they were the ones that got excited and ran away. It's fine though because love is not for everyone.

    I'm am afraid of sharks although everytime I'm in the ocean sharks come to visit me because my aunt said that's my Amakua. They swim passed me and around me though they don't eat me.

    I don't fear pain because the pain from the severe rheumatoid arthritis i have is 24/7.

    When I was 23, I had a brain tumor. With a round of chemo and radiation, the tumor died and it was left blocking a chemical passage for when I sleep I end up with seizures. It was quite frightening for years though I've gotten used to them. My body becomes paralyzed though I'm still breathing. I can hear myself screaming and yelling for help though no one can hear me. I have a sharp stabbing pain in my front right temporal lobe of my skull and all I can truly hear is static. Like the old analog TV's when the channel would go off the air. I went for a sleep study test and even the doctors say the results are inconclusive and the reading is not standard to what they've ever seen before. The most horrible and scariest part about waking up after a seizure is having loss of memory of motor skills you take for granted on a daily basis and loss of memory of friends. Some mornings i cannot remember how to brush my teeth. Some days when I get to work I cannot remember names of people I work with daily. You see, people don't understand that even with all this going on, the front I put on should be enough that no one would suspect I'm having a bad day. No one needs to know considering everyone has their own problems to deal with.

    I am afraid of sleeping, hence the reason why a lot of night I'm up so late. I'm afraid of waking up and not remembering anyone.

    I'm honest and blunt to the point. I don't have the energy to waste on people who want to be impertinent. That's just simply a waste.

    I'm not afraid of rejection because rejection help you to build courage. For some people who like to wallow in their own self pity, have at it. For the rest of the population, hooray for moving past and moving forward.

    The only fear that most of us are willing endure is loneliness. It is always lonely. Someone close to me once said, "Stay single, you'll be happier." Single is great though you don't get the companionship and relationship that you desire. It's loneliness that wakes me up in the morning and sends me to bed every night.

    Enough said. Blah blah blah! Come on covid19, do your worst! I am not afraid of you. 😘

  • Dayani Marie
    Dayani Marie North Carolina, USA.
    Thank you for sharing your story. May God bless your life and all your projects.

    Thank you for sharing your story. May God bless your life and all your projects.

  • Miranda
    Miranda Shenzhen
    Wow really good blog Jason! Well done. thanks for sharing😊

    Wow really good blog Jason! Well done. thanks for sharing😊

  • Olly (Ludoler Beatbox)
    Olly (Ludoler Beatbox) UK
    For myself, I was raised in the music industry, with my mother being an internationally acclaimed Jazz/Blues Artist, which really drove me to explore what was possible in Music. Growing up, I was always enthused by music, but I was pushed towards academia, managing to secure a scholarship at one of the best schools in the UK, allowing me to bolster professional aspects of my career both in and outside of music. The one thing I was really not interested in when developing myself musically, was fame. Seeing how much of an impact in todays day-and-age it would have, limiting in certain respects what is possible, alongside the right to privacy we should have respected as individuals. With respect to stage-fright, in my experience, its something which comes with overthinking! I remember playing a short set at a UK Festival called Beathearder maybe 5 years ago now, where I let myself get a bit "too" under the influence in order to distract myself from lack of preparation (PREPARATION), which resulted in 10 minutes of poor-quality Jump-Up DnB. A lesson was learnt that day - To Just Chill The F*** Out & Do Your Thing. All things come to pass in time, it's important to make the most out of opportunity, but similarly important not to ponder too aggressively on how it will come to pass. Musical expression is a beautiful thing, its important not to sabotage yourself. YOU DEFINE YOUR ZONE.

    For myself, I was raised in the music industry, with my mother being an internationally acclaimed Jazz/Blues Artist, which really drove me to explore what was possible in Music.

    Growing up, I was always enthused by music, but I was pushed towards academia, managing to secure a scholarship at one of the best schools in the UK, allowing me to bolster professional aspects of my career both in and outside of music.

    The one thing I was really not interested in when developing myself musically, was fame. Seeing how much of an impact in todays day-and-age it would have, limiting in certain respects what is possible, alongside the right to privacy we should have respected as individuals.

    With respect to stage-fright, in my experience, its something which comes with overthinking! I remember playing a short set at a UK Festival called Beathearder maybe 5 years ago now, where I let myself get a bit "too" under the influence in order to distract myself from lack of preparation (PREPARATION), which resulted in 10 minutes of poor-quality Jump-Up DnB.

    A lesson was learnt that day - To Just Chill The F*** Out & Do Your Thing.

    All things come to pass in time, it's important to make the most out of opportunity, but similarly important not to ponder too aggressively on how it will come to pass.

    Musical expression is a beautiful thing, its important not to sabotage yourself.

    YOU DEFINE YOUR ZONE.

  • Ashley
    Ashley Maui
    Despite your fears, you are still able to do what you love and I find that fantastic. Keep up the great work that you’re doing. My challenge is talking to people face to face for the first time and getting to know them. It’s one thing to work in retail, hospitality, or any customer interaction based job where talking to them is easy. But to get to know people in person is different. I’m very observant and I listen to them but during my observations I guess I don’t show a reaction some would like to see which deters them from coming back. It takes more than awhile for me to warm up because in a world that’s filled with butt hurt people, I need to be sure that what I say and do is ok with them. Another challenge is using different words to still get my point across. I’m a very straight forward person and my words do come across as aggressive when I speak regardless of body language and how it’s been said. It takes me a while to collect the words before I say what I need to say. But I am trying to correct these two things.

    Despite your fears, you are still able to do what you love and I find that fantastic. Keep up the great work that you’re doing.

    My challenge is talking to people face to face for the first time and getting to know them. It’s one thing to work in retail, hospitality, or any customer interaction based job where talking to them is easy. But to get to know people in person is different. I’m very observant and I listen to them but during my observations I guess I don’t show a reaction some would like to see which deters them from coming back. It takes more than awhile for me to warm up because in a world that’s filled with butt hurt people, I need to be sure that what I say and do is ok with them.

    Another challenge is using different words to still get my point across. I’m a very straight forward person and my words do come across as aggressive when I speak regardless of body language and how it’s been said. It takes me a while to collect the words before I say what I need to say.

    But I am trying to correct these two things.

  • Raymart
    Raymart Hawaii
    Great story blog brotha!!!! Keep doing you. You’ll make the best of it. Strive for more and never give up!

    Great story blog brotha!!!! Keep doing you. You’ll make the best of it. Strive for more and never give up!

  • fralissa
    fralissa hawaii
    glad to hear your story! keep doing what you love because it is a passion of yours waiting to be shared :)

    glad to hear your story! keep doing what you love because it is a passion of yours waiting to be shared smile

  • Vaness
    Vaness Hawaii
    Very inspiring! I think most of us experience stage fright. How you’ve overcome it and dealt with it and turned it around is a very inspiring story for youngsters to hear and a reminder to keep pursuing your dreams and never give up!

    Very inspiring! I think most of us experience stage fright. How you’ve overcome it and dealt with it and turned it around is a very inspiring story for youngsters to hear and a reminder to keep pursuing your dreams and never give up!

  • Culley
    Culley Hawaii Kai
    some inspiring stuff jason! right now our connection with God is more important than ever. It’s increasingly getting harder to keep a strong connection to the lord, but that’s part of our journey to the end goal. ur blogs help remind me of what God does for others aswell as myself.

    some inspiring stuff jason! right now our connection with God is more important than ever. It’s increasingly getting harder to keep a strong connection to the lord, but that’s part of our journey to the end goal. ur blogs help remind me of what God does for others aswell as myself.

  • John Lum your Life group Leader!!
    John Lum your Life group Leader!! Nuunau Honolulu, Hawaii
    Wow!! MR. TOM you are a blessed man of GOD!! God is good look what God has done in your Life!! I love and I appreciate you are my Ohana ❤️

    Wow!! MR. TOM you are a blessed man of GOD!! God is good look what God has done in your Life!! I love and I appreciate you are my Ohana ❤️

  • Darren
    Darren Honolulu
    Awesome story Jay.. you've come a long way..the fear I have is rejection..as a entertainer.. i had stage fright every time I went to perform music with Bands on stage... How I got over it was play a 50,000 people at Aloha Stadium back in 99.. and on the jumbo tron.. we were playing on the 50 yrd line at a sold out football game... that is how I got rid of my fear on stage.. but yes you came a long way... ..and it is amazing what God does to Help us out...

    Awesome story Jay.. you've come a long way..the fear I have is rejection..as a entertainer.. i had stage fright every time I went to perform music with Bands on stage... How I got over it was play a 50,000 people at Aloha Stadium back in 99.. and on the jumbo tron.. we were playing on the 50 yrd line at a sold out football game... that is how I got rid of my fear on stage.. but yes you came a long way... ..and it is amazing what God does to Help us out...

  • Esha limbu
    Esha limbu Thimphu, Bhutan
    Wow... Glad to hear your story..😊You've came from long way.. you are great.keep going and God blessed you ❤️❤️😇 Thank you for sharing your story.. and we are glad to hear your story... Lots of love from me and my family ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    Wow... Glad to hear your story..😊You've came from long way.. you are great.keep going and God blessed you ❤️❤️😇 Thank you for sharing your story.. and we are glad to hear your story... Lots of love from me and my family ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Dav
    Dav Hawaii
    Jason, what a great blog and very enlightening! Thank you for sharing such an inspirational story. A lot of people struggle with Stage Fright, but you’re experiences are great examples of God’s strength empowering you to over come your life challenges and to be an inspiration to many that may be going through similar situational in their lives. Great job and keep doing what you’re doing!

    Jason, what a great blog and very enlightening! Thank you for sharing such an inspirational story. A lot of people struggle with Stage Fright, but you’re experiences are great examples of God’s strength empowering you to over come your life challenges and to be an inspiration to many that may be going through similar situational in their lives. Great job and keep doing what you’re doing!

  • Kelly Cooper
    Kelly Cooper Ventura County, California
    2 Cor 2:19 - But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. I’m so grateful that being broken and bruised only primes us that much more for our God to reveal His unfailing love, display His power, and bless others through us. Your story is deeply moving. You inspired me when I had all but given up on both on God and myself, and your prayers moved mountains so He could reach me at one of my lowest points. Thank you for saying yes to His call again and again, Jason... as His hands and feet, we can bring light into this dark world 🙏🏼

    2 Cor 2:19 - But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

    I’m so grateful that being broken and bruised only primes us that much more for our God to reveal His unfailing love, display His power, and bless others through us. Your story is deeply moving. You inspired me when I had all but given up on both on God and myself, and your prayers moved mountains so He could reach me at one of my lowest points. Thank you for saying yes to His call again and again, Jason... as His hands and feet, we can bring light into this dark world 🙏🏼

  • Gale
    Gale Hawaii
    God is the only one who can help us overcome any obstacle. It is through His strength that our weakness is made strong.

    God is the only one who can help us overcome any obstacle. It is through His strength that our weakness is made strong.

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